It seems like it's been a while. Since my last post, I've been preoccupied with some things, particularly with trying to find out how possible it is for me to give myself a break from all of this 24/7 caregiving duties, and I mean taking a week off, not just a few hours, though I did get an opportunity for that this past weekend. I was invited to go see FROZEN (the travelling Broadway show) and I enjoyed being able to go out on the excursion as well as see the play. It was absolutely refreshing to get some air and to go somewhere that I don't get to visit often.
I enjoyed watching the play, though I was in the nosebleed section, so I couldn't see the faces, but it's a great spot for watching the theatrical effects. That's probably what I enjoyed the most about it, though being able to hear someone else sing, "Let It Go," because I had so many people ask me when the movie came out if I would sing it, and I've always struggled with doing it, because my vocal style is different from Idina Menzel's (i.e. powerhouse vs. shy and quiet singer), and I just felt so intimidated. This particular actress had a style a little bit closer to mine, and it made me realize that I didn't need to feel intimidated just because my style is different, and maybe, just maybe, I'm actually able to do it better than I realize. For those who haven't kept up on past posts, this singing issue has always been a thing, even before this song was written. It takes a lot for me to share my singing (alone) to the public, and I've done it a few times, but not without feeling really anxious about it and questioning myself every now and then concerning whether I should have shared it or not.
That wasn't the main preoccupation I've had during this time of silence. The main thing that has been keeping me away has to do with a lot of researching and figuring out how to budget this week-long time off. Researching for several days, and figuring out a good budget, which I thought was going to be impossible to meet when I was looking around at pricing. It was almost to the point that I was going to have to accept that it wasn't possible for that particular place, until I discovered something, and as I looked into it, I realized that it was going to work! Don't you love it when that happens? There were a few adjustments made, and this is going to happen 7 months out, because not only does it allow me to handle my finances better, but I'm also one of those weirdos who has to look into every little detail so that I know exactly, or as close to exactly as I can get, what I'll be dealing with in finances, the situation of the location, what to expect, what's going on.... You get the idea. Basically, it's just getting the silly details stuck in my head well enough that I'll know enough of what I'm doing, because when I'm actually in the moment, if it's not firmly stuck in my head, it's gone and forgotten. I really want to say what it is, but it's still in the beginning stages, and I don't really want to announce it, until everything is 100% set.
I think that's all I have to say for the moment, so have a great day, and let this coming holiday season be a great one! Speaking of which, I released a Christmas song on my channel. I still have a few qualms (of course) about my voice, but I think it's among my better ones.
