Bring It On?

When I said, "Bring it on," I was talking about the weather; however, my human self took that to mean internally.  This week has been such an emotional internal battle.  I've been quite melancholy this week and constantly found myself delving into the bad thought zone where I get a bid self abusive and depreciating.  The emotions built up as the week went on.  I nearly cried Wednesday with it and really did cry a few times the next day.  I was on edge that day.  Every little thing people were getting after me for set me off.  It was not a pretty sight.  No yelling, but the heightened emotions made me upset easily, complain and withdraw from the others that I normally would spend a little time with.  That was not a fun day.

Still had a little residue from that, but not quite as dramatic...and then focusing on my work distracted me back into my happy mode.  I got a lot done and I was seeing the end of a long tunnel coming closer.  That brought me back.

It was the Christmas party for our work and, well, they had me sing "the song".  In case there's someone who doesn't know or remember what I'm talking about, I rewrote the words to "Let It Go" to fit my work environment...and when the managers got a hold of it, they asked me to sing it.  I'm not quite sure how I did on my terms, but everyone seemed to enjoy it.  They requested me to give them the words and to record it.  I have already recorded it.  I've also had people ask me how I was willing to do it.  I just laugh and say, "I'm crazy."  This was actually the first time I got in front of a group to sing a solo (yes, by myself) in public.  It was nerve wracking because I didn't know exactly when they were going to ask me to do it, we had just finished with a good sized meal, I never had the chance to warm up and get used to the surroundings, and they never tested my music over the sound system.  Basically, I was "winging it" the whole way.  I got some good compliments from it though.  I was told that I kept up with the music well and that was a relief--that was one of the concerns I had--and I did get some laughs, which is what was intended.  Even though it is not always easy, I like the challenge.  I have a bit of that streak in me....I like to test myself sometimes in things that are a little bit out of my comfort zone.