Almost two weeks has passed since the road in my life took a sudden bend and whipped me into a different situation. A few days before it happened I saw it coming and was forewarned about it, and what followed is exactly what I visualized, but better. I look around at the people who supported me, people I worked with, my friends and/or neighbors, and my family. Their reactions to my situation were more supportive than I expected. A few of those I worked with reached out to me and spoke to me very kindly. Those who found out in my neighborhood were sympathetic and offered support also. I am most grateful out of all of these is how my family handled the situation. They were all sympathetic and offered their support through it all, even those who normally don't show much patience with me. It has been a great eye opener for me to see how many good people I have in my life who actually care for me. I confess that most of my life, I've learned to try to deal with personal issues alone, because I never felt like many people really genuinely cared. I can't say that this will get me completely out of that mindset, but as I said before, it has been quite a revelation to see who stepped in when I experienced this difficulty.
One of the beautiful parts about this experience is being able to stay with my family and take care of their needs. My mind is clear, and I feel like myself again. Going through the tedious day-to-day things of trying to see to it that the needs of my family were being met, I received this great sense of belonging that I hadn't felt for years. I am needed, and by taking care of those
needs, I find myself happier than I have been for a long time. Everyone in the family is happier also. Since I've been home, my parents' ridiculous bickering has reduced. My mom's health has showed improvement, along with that her spirits. She used to cry a lot in the morning trying to do things, but since the time I was there to help her, she hasn't cried. My sister doesn't have to go to work at odd hours any more to make up for the time she had to spend coming to take care of things. I am relaxed, free from the tremendous burden I was carrying, and my creativity is working again--had no idea how much that was suffering until now. I have enough savings to get me by for a while until I find something more suitable for the situation. As painful as this experience was, everywhere I look, something better has come out of it.
I am calm and I know things will work out for the better whatever will come. I am thankful for the great people in my life, and I do believe my path is leading me a better direction. As good as the workplace was for a while, it constrained my gifts and abilities, and that contributed to my inability to recover from my burnout. Now I have the opportunity to recover and get them flowing again. Those things are important for me to maintain for my own sanity, and for those out there who benefit from it.
I am not discouraged. I refuse to be discouraged. I don't know what lies ahead, but I have plenty of support from loved ones from here and also in heaven. It will all turn out well, no matter what. I wholeheartedly believe that.
I am thankful for it all.
